Grants Pass

from Waxing Gibbous by Cay Is Okay

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lyrics

If I could cover my face and disguise my race,
I'd finally feel safe in this town.
They want me to have lighter skin
to better fit into standards without this brown.
I could blame my mom and dad.
I had who I had; it wasn't so bad.
I think the world wants to change who I am,
but I am who I am.
I don't give a damn most days.

Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to remember that I'm beautiful
despite how they want me to feel.

If people could view beyond skin and peer deeper in,
they'd find I house a radiant soul;
but years of emotional scars and systemic bars
made it difficult for me to feel whole.
But then I gaze into the mirror.
I see my brown tint, and I feel like I'm glowing.
Perception of self's getting clearer.
It's taking some time, but I'm actively growing.

Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to feel beautiful in this brown body.
Oh, oh, I'm trying to remember that I'm beautiful
despite how they want me to feel.

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from Waxing Gibbous, released May 1, 2020

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Cay Is Okay Portland, Oregon

the emotional undercurrents of mundane experiences

discography

First Quarter

Dec 2023
Waxing Gibbous

May 2020
Low-Fi

Jan 2018
Dogtime

Aug 2016
Self-Trepanation

Mar 2016

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